Ever feel like YOU are processing energy for someone else!?
It’s challenging to not “get involved” when someone you have close connections with is going through a difficult time. Energy as a transferable force has no boundaries and can easily leak over and effect you even when it is clearly not yours.
This morning I found myself very anxious which is not a typical feeling that I normally have. Due to this unexplained feeling I came back to a re-occurring thought that I have been wondering about: Am I running interference for someone else?
I googled the definition to which I found:
run interference - to help someone achieve something by dealing with the people or problems that might prevent them from doing so.
In the last couple months I have also been having moments at night where I will wake up and my energy is all over the place, restless, and uncomfortable. I know this is again not my normal self so where is this coming from? Why am I so restless?
Sometimes we do subconsciously run interference for those we love because we love them. We don’t want them to have to carry the overwhelm or burden all on their own. So energetically, I feel I have subconsciously been processing the energy of someone dear to me because at times it was just too much for them. Ok, no problem, I initially think. I am totally willing to do that, what difference does it make if I wake up restless every once in a while. However, now I am seeing that it is knocking me off balance and leaking into my day. That, I feel is just not necessary. I am at my best when I operate from my core influenced by only my own energy. It’s starting to make me second guess myself and feel confused and wonder what more can I do to help. But, I know that no clear answer will come unless I am able to tap into my own energy without interference.
So I simply ask myself, “What is it that I need the most?”
To which the first word that comes to me is, “Calming.”
It’s not the whole picture, it’s not the answer to all of the current issues, but it is a passageway where I will be able to clear and re-connect to myself from processing the energy of others for them. It is where I again, gain my own footing and get clear in my head about what is needed at this time.
So, I am going to take 10 minutes for myself in meditation doing the inner smile and the inner breath meditation, and see where I will come out afterwards.
We all run interference and we are not always so aware that it is happening so I too invite you to take a moment and just ask yourself, “What is it that I need the most?” Be still and silent and honor that first word or thought that comes to you. That is your spirit speaking up and it is worth listening too.
And further it may even be helpful for you to have the person you are running interference for do this as well, for their self. It will lend you each clarity and maybe even a direction of where to focus on in the present moment to bring more peace to the issue at hand and to take a baby step in coming back from the overwhelms of life.