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Dream of “Delphium”

Delphium is not a word I am familiar with. In fact it is a word I have never heard of. Easy enough to confuse it with the word Delphinium which is in fact a beautiful flower. However, in the transmission of information that was communicated in my dream state it was clear there was to be no confusion here and that the word I was meant to bring to conciousness is indeed Delphium.

It came through in my dreams repeated times: Delphium, Delphium, Delphium. It was so clear and prominent for me to remember. In fact at one point I even woke myself up enough to lean over and scribble the word onto a piece of paper on my nightstand. And when I woke up officially just 30 minutes ago the word was still floating clearly in my consciousness and I recalled it instantly and with certainty. Delphium.

The last images of my dreams where also of me finding my place. There was a sense that this location was a place to make a home. It was a space where the waters of the sea were in communion with a rocky pebbly beach. No sand just rocks. Gray and round and smooth and peaceful. The water soaked into them and it felt like home. Another image I am remembering now from deeper back in my dream state was of a family out on a boat. The little girl was hanging off the front of the boat and the boy was just jumping in the wide open ocean. The family was having fun playing in the water. But then two rhinoceros like noses protruded from the waters like whales. Up for air and then below, then up again and below. It was easy to tell they were gentle beings going about their own business and that they were huge underneath the water where I could not see. The boy successfully got out of the water, back onto the boat. The girl was lifted up out of the water and taken for a short ride on top of one of the rhinoceros noses. She smiled and squealed and it was great fun for her but then she disappeared. Even though the dream images communicated that the family could now not see her in the water and that they could not find her there was a sense that she was ok and then following that came a knowingness that she made it to shore. She did not get lost in the waters. Despite her separation from her family at sea she found her own way to land and saved herself. And I say “saved” lightly because there was never really anything to be saved from, like there was always a certainty that she would make it despite the wide open sea that she had been swallowed in. The feel of it all was very calm and very sure that she was just fine and always had been.

Upon awakening this morning with all of this behind me I asked, “What is Delphium?” I did not receive any real response but a feeling emerged from within me much like something surfacing from the water. I connected it with another word I had received recently, “Glorion” which felt like another world. To me “Delphium” felt like another world too, an underwater like world, and I actually could see myself as a mermaid swimming towards the surface of the water. Going even deeper than this there is a sense that it is an inner world, a world that exists inside. It feels like there is much coming to the surface that I cannot explain and yet I am very much submerged in it. Does this make sense for you too? It feels like “Glorion” is the world outside of me that shines millions of light years away and is bright and glowy and “Delphium” is the deep and dark watery world that subsides within me. And yet I am at one with both of these worlds.

I don’t know what all of this really means other than just simply taking it for what it says it is and then moving on with my day. But I do know that as I woke up this morning I felt like a big shiny ball of light glowing from the inside out and that felt… magnificent. I wanted to hold onto that inner feeling, but now fully awake it is gone, from the surface of my human awareness anyway. So I take it as a sign that there is much to surface from the depths of my inner self and I know that somehow I will find my way, that I already am. That I must now go upon my day and allow whatever is to be to unfold naturally as it already is. From the inside out.

Lastly, thanks to the world-wide web, I googled “Delphium” and was quite surprised to come upon this site…


There is much here that peaks my interest to be explored and also confirmation that indeed Delphium is linked to water.

Thank you for taking the time to read of my strange and beautiful life 🙂

I hope you have a lovely day.

FP13_03- swimming on the water surface...

FP13_03- swimming on the water surface… (Photo credit: ArturoYee)

Merry Christmas Everyone

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christmas tree (Photo credit: peminumkopi)

Christmas is a heart centered holiday. It’s a time where we can all practice the giving and the receiving of having an open heart.

My Christmas wish is for my family and friends, for myself, and for more people world-wide to be fully open to giving and receiving love at all times.

Christmas is a time for making our wishes and hoping and praying, believing they’ll come true. This special time allows us to see through the eyes of a child and engage with the magic of the world and the Christmas Spirit.

Merry Christmas to all!

Have a Happy Holiday.

I don’t know what to say except that…

What happened on Friday in Newtown, Connecticut feels like the extremist tragedy I have known in my whole life of 33 years. It shook me to my core and touched me emotionally in places I never wanted to be touched. As a parent sitting here writing on this topic, I cry, holding my face as the tears surface. I whisper to myself, “Oh those poor babies,” as the tears spill over wetting my cheeks. My heart feels as if it pierces itself and I get mad, “NO ONE has the right! No one ever has the right to do that or anything like it!” I feel sick to my stomach. I feel sad. I am sorry. I am so sorry for the loss, for the extreme loss of the lives taken that day.

But twistedly I understand that as much as it has pained our wide-spread community, our country, and as much as we would never have wanted this to happen, an underlying truth is that it has brought us together. It has provided a space for an emotional tidal wave to be felt by so many caring compassionate human beings and all at the same time. We have all at this point gone through the stages of shock, horror, anger, sadness, and numbness of our grief. The wound from this event cuts deep in our collective history, our collective consciousness, and our collective emotional heart-ties. We all felt this one. And through feeling it so strongly and so collectively it has also emblazed and lit a purposeful fire in which so many of us want to pursue the answers to: What are WE going to do to keep our kids safe? What can we do to stop this violence? What can we do to bring more peace to the world? – It seems sobering that all of these questions point directly to our children, all of our children. They are the way. They are the answers. We must know individually that if we teach our children right and honor them, then we’ve done our best, and that is the best place we can start. And we must know collectively that if we all do this it will change the world.

I appreciated that in President Obama’s speech at the memorial service for the Sandy Hook Elementary victims, that he commented on how it takes a community to keep kids safe. This is true. We all are responsible whether the kids are ours or not. He said, “No matter how much you love these kids, you can’t do it by yourself.  That this job of keeping our children safe, and teaching them well, is something we can only do together, with the help of friends and neighbors, the help of a community, and the help of a nation.  And in that way, we come to realize that we bear a responsibility for every child because we’re counting on everybody else to help look after ours; that we’re all parents; that they’re all our children.” And so we too are united in this, that we all need to be child advocates. Making sure the children in our communities have enough to eat, have a warm place to sleep, have people in their life who care for them, and most importantly have love, kindness, kind words spoken to them, and joy. The last one is what feeds children’s souls more than anything I think- joy.

That’s all I have to say.

But wait one more thing… it has united us in prayer too. Direct intentioned prayer. Powerful prayer. And we are being heard, so keep praying!

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President Obama’s Newtown speech:


December Horoscope

Let’s face it this time of year is just busy.

So today I am posting short and simple for both our benefits.

Here is a link to check out your horoscope for the month of December from my favorite horoscope guy D.K. Brainard. His predictions tend to resonate deeply with me. Check it out for yourself and see what you think.

His general prediction for all signs for the month is “focus on new opportunity.”