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A Piece from My Memoir

 From Day 58 of transcribing my journal:

This was such a sweet moment for me. I hadn’t rocked my daughter to sleep since she was 4 months old and somehow on this particular day things aligned for me to be able to do so and this is what happened…

So here I was holding onto this little golden nugget. My darling baby girl, sweet and silent in my arms. I could feel my hands start to pulse as I held her. One hand on her bottom and one on her head. I called in our teams (spiritual guides and angels) to work together for our highest good and opened myself to allow whatever energy was to flow through me to her. Captured in this moment and in this divine flow, it was as if we were both being nursed by a divine mother. Grace delivered.

With her sweet little face still turned up towards me I stared at her. And took in the great detail noticing the small and delicate features of her face. Her little nose, her little lips, her little cheeks. Her hair flaxen and gold and how it shined in the light that glimmered through from the darkness of the room. Then all of a sudden I could see her through my eyes, my spirit eyes, those that see much deeper than the beauty of her skin. Those that invoke the sight to see into her soul.

Her face looked like a tiny little pink flower blooming with perfection amidst a green forest floor. Her petals stretched beyond her, so delicate, a pale rosy pink and her eager face turned upward to see the world from among the blanket of green. Then I took notice of her surroundings. All around her I could see tall, huge, massive trees towering up from the forest floor. They felt like Redwoods they were so mammoth and carried such great godly presence. And then from the hollows I heard, “Is the little pink flower no more important than the tall standing tree? No more a miracle in its own being and beauty as the tree is?”

“All things big and small are beautiful and important. Each is created with the light of God’s hand. We should have reverence for all things in the material worlds. To treat them with respect, with love, and gratitude for their being. For you are all sharing this space for the time being.”

In that moment holding Marin and hearing the words that were shared comparing my baby, a tiny delicate flower, to those who tower over her like trees, adults, I could see the equality of the two break through. Although she may be small and fragile like a flower (a flower cup flashes in my mind) and not tall and strong like a tree or an adult she is equally a miracle in her own right. She is equally valuable and a blessing. And she equally holds her own sacred space amongst all life. A sight to behold. Something awe-inspiring and grand. Crafted by Gods hand, I hold her gently in my own. Gentle; this word sticks with me. I have not been gentle today, with my temper, with my children, and at times with myself. And yet here I am totally gifted by the gentleness of this sacred moment and in it touched by the gentleness of God, the gentleness of spirit, and the divine communication I am open to.

What I got from taking a course in mediumship…

A couple of weeks ago I took a class on doing mediumship work. This is a skill that I thought maybe I was ready to extend myself to doing. Previously in my healing work I have had the pleasure of communicating with crossed over loved ones. These experiences are always very touching but all in all it does not tend to be a focus for me. So, in taking this class I was exploring my curiosity of being able to communicate with greater ease with other’s departed loved ones.

I love learning, and trying new techniques of spiritual work, and the class was awesome! I was able to tap into some of the other participants’ loved ones, and had a couple of very beautiful messages come through. But then other times the messages were jumbled, unclear, and confusing. For example, one message that came through was, “Let’s order pizza!” I was like, what!? And did feel a little silly relaying that information. So maybe I was trying to force my hand a bit thinking I could take a class and voila be a medium – ha ha.

One thing that I am certain of is that I can, the ability is there, even if it seems to be in the most beginner stages of its development. And I think that is actually what I got most from the class; that I am where I am with reason and purpose. That things take time but they also take effort. Some things come natural and others you have to work at to achieve. Like they say practice makes perfect and I understand I have some practice to do… but all as time allows and the divine provides for. I am on my own path and nobody elses. And I understood this as I looked around the room in amazement at the people who were picking up on the details of the spirits such as “brown hair, brown eyes, liked to fish”, and other’s who had direct messages like, “They want to tell you that they are sorry for what they did.” I was glad to be a part of this experience but also to be in a personal space to not judge or compare myself to these other incredibly gifted beings and to instead be humbled and happy about where I am… still learning.

In fact, during a different part of the class I did receive from two different sources that my full scope of intuitive abilities will be open in about four years. This makes me happy for how far I have come, for the skills I have been able to develop, and makes me really excited to see what’s next! Maybe my soul is not ready for the full on of being able to detect and be in communication with other souls, those crossed AND those not crossed.

Maybe I have some other areas to perfect and get comfortable with first. In fact, I have been noticing lately that I am seeing a lot more energy with my physical eyes. There was one day that I did see the color pink bubbling across a wall, and nearly every night that I sit and watch tv I can see white wisps in my peripheral vision. Also, I am seeing the outline of auras super easy these days and just this morning laying in bed for the 2nd snooze in a row, I could feel my energy bubble around me. I could feel the part of me that is contained outside of my body and could feel its wholeness as the peace of being a spirit soothed me and took me to that place of experiencing sweet and peaceful bliss. It was a great way to start the day.

I have always been an eager learner, and in most cases I am confident, but one thing predetermines all –  you cannot force a flower to open it must open and blossom in its own sweet time.

“Quote” by Korinn

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Kids playing in the beach in Santa Marta

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“When you do what you love and love what you do you are creating security in your life.”

-KSH

As a Healer

Working as a Healer is an interesting and humbling experience. You never know what course of action will pop-up as the route to take for the person receiving the healing and you never know what will be revealed as the real cause of their issue. We all have many dimensions to who we are and often times in a healing the dimensions stretch holistically across our emotions, our mental state, our physical condition, and even our spiritual self.

To work in someone’s energy field as a healer you must be able to tune into them on a subtle level in order to pick-up on what their connections are that need to be unblocked or amped up. During a healing I am in constant communication with the person’s body, mind, and soul, as well as their spiritual guidance team, and my own, so that I can follow the signals being communicated and deliver the most optimal healing for their highest good. These signals come through as images and colors, as words heard or spoken, as physical sensations, and even as feelings or knowingness.

Also, I am not actually generating the healing energy but am quite simply the channel for the divine to move through. I am the facilitator, an important member of the team as I am here in the physical realm, but during a healing I am more so like a tool than a guiding hand. My own body, mind, and soul act as a healing field for the energy to be amplified and directed through but the divine is always the guiding hand and the energy source in this co-creative process of healing.

Being a healer takes a lot of practice and a good course of study to familiarize yourself with a particular healing technique.  Then in time as you hone in on your individual skill as a healer it becomes a little more free-flowing and ends up being so much more like play than like work. Each time that I lay my hands on someone the process emerges as its very own unique snowflake. No two healings are ever the same and the end result always crystallizes as a beautifully relaxed, re-centered, and often times revitalized individual. And each time that I lay my hands on someone I am grateful for their trust and am so humbled to be doing this work. It is truly a gift from God, both to myself, and to others.

Sleeping Baby

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Heaven rest, the baby sleeps,
We part for now, but I kiss her cheek,
Stroke her hand, smile, and stare,
Peacefulness is everywhere.

In My Life

This song has deep meaning for me…

I first discovered it as a 14-year-old girl. I remember listening to it over and over and memorizing the words. It was around the time that my Grandpa, my Mom’s dad, died. Then when my Mom died in 2001 I picked this song to be played at her funeral. From that point on it brought out such raw emotion every time I would hear it.

When my first child was born I began singing it to him like a lullaby. The first couple times that I tried to sing it I held him so close and stared at his sweet little face as tears poured down my cheeks. It was hard to get all the way through the song as it brought up such sadness for missing my Mom but I knew that eventually I would be able to sing it and not weep and so I tried for this every night.

At last when the tears did not come anymore the song took on a new dimension for me. It was no longer rooted in the pain of loss but in the fullness of love expressed. I would still sing it and think of my Mom but it was now also for my sweet child that I held in my arms and then later for his sister. We have since moved out of the lullaby stage but occasionally I will still sing it to express to them how very much I love them. For me this song is the culmination of love. Love lived, love lost, and love expressed…in my life.

How You See Yourself and How Others See You

Once upon a time there was a little star that looked just like you. The star grew and grew and became bigger and brighter and knew only joy and peace. But then one day the little star noticed an even bigger and brighter star and it began to judge and compare itself to this other bright and beautiful star. It began to forget how big and bright and beautiful it was. It said, “I’m not as sparkly. I’m not as pretty.” And then it began to doubt its own shine and slowly started to fade and dim.

What happened to the little star who dimmed its own light by not believing that its shine was bright enough? I don’t know… but I’m sure your story is not over yet.

Beyond the skin and bone of who you are lies the star shine of your soul. It is not to be dimmed, it is to grow and expand. Your star shine is your essence and when people look at you that is what they see beyond your skin and bone. The skin and bone is only the dense material it has to get through in order to shine bigger and brighter.

We put too much emphasis on what we think we look like in the eyes of others when the truth of it is that we are all shining stars and if we could let go of comparison and judgment then we would continue moving forward in building our capacity to shine instead of hindering it.

In Honor of Earth Day & Body and Earth Mindfulness

An excerpt from my book Our Home, The Earth:

The world is in our hands

The world is in our hands

We are part of the Earth, and the Earth is part of us,

as we breathe its air, drink its water, eat its food, and live on its land.

The Earth takes care of us, and so we should take care of it.

When we take care of the Earth,

we take care of each other,

and we take care of ourselves.

     In honor of Earth Day this week I would like to offer a 15% discount off of my book Our Home, The Earth. Place your order via email at KorinnSHawkins@gmail.com. It is available in softcover and hardcover and can be previewed at www.Korinn.com.

Our Relationship with our body is an extension of our relationship with the Earth

What we often times don’t realize is that much of our own healing has to do with the Earth. The Earth is our body, we are made up of the Earth and we must heal our body for our world to wholly be in balance. For example, if we healed the Earth by doing various things such as cleaning up pollution and increasing the quality of the food we produce and consume wouldn’t our body naturally come back into balance? And wouldn’t this also increase the healthfulness of the Earth itself?

We are each a “life cell” of Great Mother Earth. You are but one that make up the many and indeed a part of the larger being called Earth, just like a cell in your own body is part of you. We are each responsible for our own body, how we view it, how we treat it, how we interact with it, and how we support it. This is true for our relationship with the Earth as well. So are you one that adds to the dis-ease of the Earth or one who heals it? Are you one who adds to the dis-ease of your own body or one who heals it? Keep in mind there might not be any easy yes or no answer here, these are complex and fluctuating relationships. However, it is important to consider your position because there is a direct and cumulative effect here and it is multiplied by 7 million (as in the number of people who inhabit the Earth).

Ask yourself these questions and explore your own harmonies and dysfunctions of being part of the Earth body. For me it is a constant challenge but also a process for growth. I like to think that if I look at it straight-on there allows an openness for awareness to creep in and for healing to occur and that is why I am posing these questions here. (No need to actually write an answer just a quick check-in as you read the questions will offer insight).

1)How do you view your body?

2)How do you view the Earth?

3)Do you place more value on your body or the Earth?

4)Do you feel it is right to value one over the other?

5)How do you treat your body?

6)How do you treat the Earth?

7)How do you support your body?

8)How do you support your Earth?

Are you seeing how the relationship with your body and the Earth are synonymously overlapping?

Pick something to improve on whether it is Earth or body related and feel good about yourself – you are a beautiful Earth Being! And remember, “When we take care of the Earth, we take care of each other, and we take care of ourselves.”

Now let’s close with expressing gratitude by placing a hand on your chest and letting your eye wander to a nearby window and saying: “I love you Earth and I love you body.”

Feel the subtleness of the two being so gently intertwined.

News About Upcoming Book

I have been working on a book with fellow author, Dick Edwards, since last May. We are approaching the one year mark of knowing each other and of working on this project.

I am super excited because we have finally started the process of working with a publisher, Amber Skye Publishing, who will assist us in the final editing and book design. I have never done this before, it has always just been me, so I feel very lucky to have their professional help! And while our book did not get picked up by a “traditional publisher” here we are still making our way, finding our own publisher, hiring their services, and accomplishing our dream.

It feels so GREAT!

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Thank you so much for your continued interest in my words and my work!

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