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My Awakening Experience and Moving Forward…

Today’s post is in participation of  a writing challenge hosted by the blog Me My Magnificent Self (http://memymagnificentself.wordpress.com/2013/12/17/challenge-2014-my-awakening-experience-and-moving-forward/ ).

It will also be a chapter in an upcoming free e-book! I hope you enjoy my piece.


Wake up and Smile at Life

It was late November and I was taking a class on Energy Medicine. As part of the class we were guided through an Inner Smile Meditation. I had never practiced this meditation before but was open to the experience. The instructor gently led us through the first step: thinking of something that makes us smile. It could be anything as long as it induced a genuine smile to our face. Instantly I thought of my children and their bright and smiling faces appeared in my mind. It was easy to smile back at them and to feel my heart lighten with joy. The next step was to then drop the smile triggering thought and to just feel. And I mean literally just feel. To shift our attention to our body and really take notice of what our body felt like in that state of inner smiling. It felt great! And for a short blip of time my mind was actually silent because my attention was not in my mind but in my body. The instructor continued to lead us through the meditation guiding us to think of the trigger when our smile had faded and to repeat the process over and over for 10 minutes. I found the meditation to be easy enough to remember and enjoyable so I took his suggested challenge of making it a daily practice.

On day two I found myself at home setting a timer and sitting in the rocking chair in our family sunroom. I began with the same smile triggering thought of my children and continued the repetitive cycle going from thought to smile to feeling and back again for 10 minutes. On day three I started to venture out a little and now was switching up my triggering thoughts to being able to smile at the thought of other people and to memories as well. Each time my smile would fade it became easier to think of a new trigger that genuinely elicited the response of smiling brightly to myself. I realized that a smile is not just an emotional response but it is a gateway to the opening of the heart to experience more joy and presence in one’s life. Spending a simple 10 minutes a day focusing on smiling and feeling my inner smile was balancing me out to be more present in other parts of the day. I wasn’t only feeling its benefit I was living it.

I continued on through day four and five but it wasn’t until day six that I had a spontaneous shift in opening my heart to the simple and the mundane as being worthy smile triggers. As I sat in the rocking chair in the sunroom I prepared to quiet my mind and illicit a trigger thought only this time as I became present in the moment and aware of my surroundings I heard a noise in the background. It was the noise of water running. In fact it was water running into my washing machine. Only moments before I had loaded it mindlessly thinking of something else as I shoved the clothes in, added the detergent, turned and pulled the knob, and closed the lid. Just going through the motions and then walking away ironically to go and be present in meditation. So here I sit having this beautiful and rewarding time to myself as my lovely and tireless washing machine works away for me. The thought made me smile. And in that moment I felt such genuine joy and appreciation for my washing machine. I even giggled out loud a little bit in amusement thinking, “Really, is this really happening? I’m smiling because of my washing machine.” But as I felt into the moment it was undeniably true. The thought of my washing machine working was indeed raising a sense of joy within me and causing me to smile. In moments like this life really is so simple and so beautiful.

I continued on and in the next moment as my smile faded I needed another trigger. This time I focused on feeling the sunshine on my face. A smile came easily to my lips. What a beautiful and simple feeling I thought…sunshine.  And then I dropped the thought and just felt my body. My heart felt so open and so happy as I just breathed and sat there. I continued on for the remainder of the 10 minutes focusing on the simple and the mundane, the blue sky, the chair I sat in, and my house in general. All of these thoughts were able to transcend to feelings of love, joy, and appreciation. No doubt my heart felt full upon completing the 10 minutes that day because I had consciously shifted to being ‘awake’ in viewing the beauty of the world that I was immersed in. It wasn’t the thought of the people who weren’t there, or the memories that had already happened, or even the dreams for the future. It was just me being in the space that I was in. In the space of beautiful, simple, and overflowing life.


When we stop from the normal rush of the day and practice presence, like in the Inner Smile Meditation, we open to allowing a new state of being in little by little. This is true because awakening, in truth, is not a solitary occurrence but it is an unfolding that deepens over time. It is cyclical in nature in that an opening of consciousness occurs and then each time we come around to that same opening we are able to make it a little bigger and a little bigger letting more awareness in. You see it is not the body that limits us as human beings it is the mind. And even though the inner smile first teaches you to use your mind to feel your body and open your heart it is actually training you to eventually feel that state of joy without any thought needed. It is actually priming you for a more transcendental relationship of using your heart to open your mind. In the shifting of human consciousness it is the heart that will open the mind as we move from being mind-centered beings to becoming heart-centered beings. The Inner Smile Meditation is a great place to begin deepening your own unfolding.  Through it you too will connect with the potential for joy held in every moment, by smiling at life.

My name is Korinn S. Hawkins I am an author, illustrator, and Energy Healing Practitioner.  Please visit my website and my blog at www.Korinn.com and follow me at www.facebook.com/korinnbooks as I continue on my own unfolding journey towards awakening.

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Here is a different version of the Inner Smile Meditation. One you can listen to if you prefer guided meditation:


Also, the blog challenge continues throughout the month of January. Here is a listing of all of the contributors. I have put in bold the one that appears after mine if you would like to continue by reading a blog a day about awakening. Enjoy!

Awakening to who you truly are… (memymagnificentself.wordpress.com)

January Challenge Schedule…

1st     Barbara  – http://memymagnificentself.wordpress.com

2nd    Paddy    – http://paddypicasso.wordpress.com

3rd     Emanuel- http://emantable.com/musings-of-a-table/



6th     Julianne – http://juliannevictoria.com

7th     Sarah     – http://rayoflight7777.wordpress.com

8th     Shree     – http://heartsongsblog.wordpress.com

9th     Dace      – http://mywaytotruth.wordpress.com

10th   Korinn    – http://www.korinn.com

11th   Sindy     – http://bluebutterfliesandme.wordpress.com

12th   Stefenie – http://dancingwithstefanie.com

13th   Mick      – http://meticulousmick.wordpress.com

14th   Joss      – http://ccwow.wordpress.com

15th   Megan   – http://mychroniclifejourney.wordpress.com

16th   Pat         – http://patinspire.org

17th   Marga    – http://lifeasimprov.com

18th   Kimberley – http://kimberlyharding.wordpress.com

19th   Becki        – http://isurvivedamurderattackmyfamilydidnt.com

20th   Serena      – http://beingmefromatoz.com

21st   Heather     – http://wildflowerwomen.wordpress.com

22nd  PurpleRay – http://purplerays.wordpress.com

23rd    Sue          – http://suedreamwalker.wordpress.com

24th    M…          – http://seeingm.wordpress.com

25th    Brian G    – http://middlepane.com

26th    Dotta       – http://dottaraphels.wordpress.com

27th    CW          – http://sunflowerrosecw.wordpress.com

28th    Laurie       – http://lauriesnotes.wordpress.com

29th    Debra       – http://ptero9.com

30th    Linda        – http://lindalitebeing.wordpress.com

31th    Michael     – http://navigator1965.wordpress.com

Animal Spirit Guide Message

The other morning I woke up and was allowed some quiet, uninterrupted time, to just lay in bed. Usually when this happens I call on all of my angels, guides, and ascended masters to be with me. Sometimes I can feel their energy as they send me gentle healing and sometimes I receive messages.

I would say in the days leading up to this I have felt a little bit stagnant energetically. Kind of in a confused state not knowing or seeing which way to go or what to go with next. I even pulled a card the other day that literally said I am at a standstill.

So on this particular morning when I got an image of a bird I knew it was a message to pay attention to. I could see the whole bird very clearly, especially the specific markings on its head, a mix of white with streaks of brown.  In fact the bird was so clear I could feel and see it in my energy field perched atop my head. I could even feel its talons etherically tangle in my hair. I watched the bird as it just sat there but even though my perched friend did not move I was shown another image. It was of the bird flying high up into the sky, to the Heavens, and then flying down low, to the Earth, moving between the two spaces effortlessly. It felt like I could do both of these things and that I will.

So my next move was to get my lazy butt out of bed and grab my Animal Spirit Guides book by Steven Farmer. This way I could see what this bird was and read further into its message. I actually had to flip through the whole book to find it. Nope not it, nope not it, as I felt the energy and passed the images of condor, eagle, and hawk. When I got to the image of a Kite, which is a bird, energetically it struck me as a match but my logical mind wanted to be positive. I thought hmm this might be it, but it wasn’t until I was able to pull up an image on the computer and see its markings on its head that I was for sure. It is interesting to me now as I write this that the head was its describing feature and that it too was perched upon my head; no doubt bringing awareness to my mind.

There are several possible messages in the book but only a few resonated. Two of them stuck out to me as things that have ironically been on my mind: eating healthy foods and taking a yoga class. Truth be told I have been on quite a binge eating horribly and my plan is to turn it around this week but also I have been wanting to take a Kundalini yoga class for years and have just recently found out that there is one taught locally! I plan to attend this week as well. These two messages were indeed a direct link but the message that actually stood out to me the most was the one that read:

Take off your mask and let the world know who you really are.

As I read this understanding flooded in and I got the full message. The other two are merely supports for the third, “Take off your mask and let the world know who you really are.” Instinctively my first reaction was to hesitate because it is scary to share yourself so openly but my hesitation passed in a fleeting moment and I knew that for me this meant to pick up where I left off in the spring and keep going with writing my memoir. It is part of who I am to share it, to share the story of who I am. So today is the day that I start my daily transcribing again.

In the spring it took me 88 days to transcribe 2 months of work, I wonder how long it will take me this time?

(Red Kite Bird of Prey by James Barker)

(Red Kite Bird of Prey by James Barker)

Dream of “Delphium”

Delphium is not a word I am familiar with. In fact it is a word I have never heard of. Easy enough to confuse it with the word Delphinium which is in fact a beautiful flower. However, in the transmission of information that was communicated in my dream state it was clear there was to be no confusion here and that the word I was meant to bring to conciousness is indeed Delphium.

It came through in my dreams repeated times: Delphium, Delphium, Delphium. It was so clear and prominent for me to remember. In fact at one point I even woke myself up enough to lean over and scribble the word onto a piece of paper on my nightstand. And when I woke up officially just 30 minutes ago the word was still floating clearly in my consciousness and I recalled it instantly and with certainty. Delphium.

The last images of my dreams where also of me finding my place. There was a sense that this location was a place to make a home. It was a space where the waters of the sea were in communion with a rocky pebbly beach. No sand just rocks. Gray and round and smooth and peaceful. The water soaked into them and it felt like home. Another image I am remembering now from deeper back in my dream state was of a family out on a boat. The little girl was hanging off the front of the boat and the boy was just jumping in the wide open ocean. The family was having fun playing in the water. But then two rhinoceros like noses protruded from the waters like whales. Up for air and then below, then up again and below. It was easy to tell they were gentle beings going about their own business and that they were huge underneath the water where I could not see. The boy successfully got out of the water, back onto the boat. The girl was lifted up out of the water and taken for a short ride on top of one of the rhinoceros noses. She smiled and squealed and it was great fun for her but then she disappeared. Even though the dream images communicated that the family could now not see her in the water and that they could not find her there was a sense that she was ok and then following that came a knowingness that she made it to shore. She did not get lost in the waters. Despite her separation from her family at sea she found her own way to land and saved herself. And I say “saved” lightly because there was never really anything to be saved from, like there was always a certainty that she would make it despite the wide open sea that she had been swallowed in. The feel of it all was very calm and very sure that she was just fine and always had been.

Upon awakening this morning with all of this behind me I asked, “What is Delphium?” I did not receive any real response but a feeling emerged from within me much like something surfacing from the water. I connected it with another word I had received recently, “Glorion” which felt like another world. To me “Delphium” felt like another world too, an underwater like world, and I actually could see myself as a mermaid swimming towards the surface of the water. Going even deeper than this there is a sense that it is an inner world, a world that exists inside. It feels like there is much coming to the surface that I cannot explain and yet I am very much submerged in it. Does this make sense for you too? It feels like “Glorion” is the world outside of me that shines millions of light years away and is bright and glowy and “Delphium” is the deep and dark watery world that subsides within me. And yet I am at one with both of these worlds.

I don’t know what all of this really means other than just simply taking it for what it says it is and then moving on with my day. But I do know that as I woke up this morning I felt like a big shiny ball of light glowing from the inside out and that felt… magnificent. I wanted to hold onto that inner feeling, but now fully awake it is gone, from the surface of my human awareness anyway. So I take it as a sign that there is much to surface from the depths of my inner self and I know that somehow I will find my way, that I already am. That I must now go upon my day and allow whatever is to be to unfold naturally as it already is. From the inside out.

Lastly, thanks to the world-wide web, I googled “Delphium” and was quite surprised to come upon this site…


There is much here that peaks my interest to be explored and also confirmation that indeed Delphium is linked to water.

Thank you for taking the time to read of my strange and beautiful life 🙂

I hope you have a lovely day.

FP13_03- swimming on the water surface...

FP13_03- swimming on the water surface… (Photo credit: ArturoYee)

A Reading for You, A Reading for All

I don’t know what to write today…

So for today I am pulling a card from The Enchanted Map Oracle Card deck by Colette Baron-Reid. My intention is for global consciousness to awaken and for the world to embody a peaceful being. This is what we need to know about our place in the process:

(When I shuffled 5 cards fell out! So it seems we are in a progression of things.)

June 27, 2013 103

Stuck in the Mud – Up to our knees in dense sticky situations. These make it hard for us to move around and yet with our own strength we are still capable of moving and getting ourself out of the sticky situation. A yellow canary sits upon our back showing us that there is hope and that there are easier ways to travel, like flying ;-). For now the canary (our spirit guides) travel with us, out of our sight but more and more we start to feel their presence and learn their ways as the skies of heaven clear above us.

June 27, 2013 104

Deep Freeze – Aspects of ourself have been frozen for quite some time but as I look at this card inverted I see that the ice is starting to thaw and that in fact even though our eyes are still shut our paw is reaching out and feeling the waters. Because of the placement of the card it shows that the direction to go in continuing with our own internal process of thawing our consciousness is to go up. This means go up to God. Meet him from where you currently stand and he will help your process by warming you from the inside out. Perhaps you can even feel this warmth within you now. Take a moment to notice if you are feeling a glowing inner warmth.

June 27, 2013 105

Rock Bottom – When you look at this card it appears that there is no way out but that is the wrong perception. It seems we have had the wrong perception for a long time. Rock bottom does not mean you have nowhere to go. Look at the card again. Rock bottom means you have multiple paths to choose from and that you have reached the depths of your decent. Notice that in the card there are four paths to take and all of them lead up and to you.

June 27, 2013 106

Field of Dreams – This card is inverted as well. The first thing my attention is drawn to is the moon, similar to the moon in the first card Stuck in the Mud. It is the same crescent shape but in this moon the magic of the moon is present. Even though it appears to be phasing if you take a closer look you can actually see the circular outline of it as a whole. This is the magic of the moon because even though sometimes it appears to be incomplete it is an illusion, the moon is always whole no matter how it looks.  The same is true for you. No matter how you may seem you are in truth always whole. And its link to the first card is that even in times when you feel stuck in the mud your completeness is still whole, even if you can’t see it. Intuitively I am also receiving that the sky is representing the mind and that the mental realm is what we are really grounding into right now as a species, the power of the mind to create our reality, such as the Law of Attraction. But notice there are eggs delicately being taken care of by elemental beings. In our ascension or opening to higher mental realms we must not forget who we have partnered with in getting here, the Earth and it’s elements, and elemental beings. What they show me next is that these eggs will crack like seeds. I see roots growing up from them into the green of the Earth from which a  more personal and intimate connection grows. This is because part of our opening and evolution is linking with respect and reverence to ourself and also to the Earth. The title of the card is appropriate Field of Dreams because it is still a dream, many are still sleeping. And if it is you that is still in dream land please don’t forget how well you have been taken care of while you slumber. Give thanks and that will help you on your path to waking up to the world that surrounds you and your awareness to it as well as your awareness to yourself.

June 27, 2013 108

Coming to Life – This card shows the final culmination of all paths traveled: being stuck with limited mobility; being frozen with no mobility or place to go; hitting rock bottom in where the only place left to go is up; and slumbering in the field of dreams where you are being taken care of with tender care and from where someday you will awake. This card represents awake and I love that it is called Coming to Life as if before this moment we had never really been alive or living. Perhaps we aren’t, at least to our full ability. This card shows us as a beautiful being rising to wholeness, taking a last step out of the brownish sand of all that you have transformed in being stuck, frozen, at rock bottom, and dreaming. There is a delicate lavender ribbon around your foot because it is like a dance, a back and forth sway as you keep your eyes closed and feel into your being. The transformation does not come in one fell swoop but it comes from a rocking back and forth between awake and asleep and paying more and more attention to your internal cues. Notice her eyes are still shut. That is because she does not look outside of herself for answers anymore. She has learned that all of her answers are within her. The ball of light represents her intuition and she holds it now. It is as physical a part of her as is her body that touches it and it is the mark of her own completeness. Notice also the yellow butterfly showing up at the foot of the girl in the image. This is the yellow guardian, like the canary in the first card, only this time it is pushing us through as we rise within ourselves to come alive for the first time as a true spiritual being embodying our self masterfully. Not so much aware and awake in our outward perceptions but most definitely awake in our inner knowing.

Wow, stuff got really deep there.

I want to thank the cards, their creators, and the divine wisdom that has been shared through them and I want to thank God.

These have been my impressions as I look at the cards with the set intention that I laid out before starting. Please take what resonates with you and leave the rest and please feel free to see what speaks to you as well in any of the images and share.